I've been a bit MIA this week. I sort of have things to write about, but I'm mostly just feeling blah. Read the rest of this post at your own risk. I'm in the mood to vent. I've been thinking about this post for a couple of days. I want you to know that things aren't always glamorous and lovely over here at Rebeckann's Random Thoughts.
First of all, let's go back to the same thing I've been whining about since December.
It's cold. It's REALLY FREAKING COLD. And I'm SICK to death of snow. And dark. I want sunlight, 75 degrees. I just want to take my garbage to the cold without freezing my butt off, and not have to worry about being late for work because my stupid windshield won't defrost.
Excuse the language, but seriously, this sums me up perfectly about now.
Winter is not about to let up any time soon. It's highly likely that Sunday into Monday night we're in for another huge snow storm.
|Where I live is in that "lovely" pink area. GRRR|
I'm tired. I just want to sleep, but mostly during the day. Night time comes around, and I'm on the computer or my iPad. Sadly, my job kind of gets in the way of this schedule.
I'm also angry. Pretty much all of the time.
In general, I really do love my job. I like teaching 6th grade reading, and (quite surprisingly) I love teaching my math class. It's the brightest moment of my teaching day. Unfortunately, it's first period so my day goes downhill after that.
BUT I'm so angry.
I am sick and tired of how disrespectful these kids are! I'm angry that parents are raising kids who do not respect their teachers and other adults. I'm angry that people are not placing a higher priority on their children's education, and I'm even angrier that these kids brag about their FAILING grades!!! Very rarely have I heard a student shout out, "I got a 100!!" after I pass back a test. What I usually get is, "HAHA! I failed!" or "I got a 30! HAHAHA!" I always hand back tests--good or bad---upside down so that students can keep their grades private. There's no REASON for these kids to "brag" about their bad grades. No one has to know! I just don't get it. I was HORRIFIED when I got B's on tests. I would never have announced to my whole class that I failed.
The other problem is that consequences just don't seem to bother these kids! I had a student in ISS for a half day today. He slammed his cafeteria tray against the (PLASTIC) garbage can so hard, that he broke the tray. Then he LAUGHED about it. He was not even phased when he came in this morning and I told him. This same kid has over 11bench times for our field trip in May! (Bench time is time that they must sit out from our field trip to a local amusement park. Each bench time is 15 minutes. Our field trip is about 4 hours. Right now, he has already lost 2 hours and 45 minutes.
I JUST DON'T GET IT!
I'm stuck in this terrible rut. I weigh more now that I ever have in my entire life. While I really do love wearing leggings, I wear them almost all of the time because I only have 1 pair of dress pants that fit. Most of my jeans are pretty questionable right now, too.
I know that I should be working out. I WANT to work out, but I'm just so tired. And I just want to eat....
I don't like how my body looks right now, and I honestly know that I feel better when I do work out. But I just can't get off of the couch.
Finally, my house is a disaster. I want to clean. I NEED to clean. Have I mentioned that I'm tired?
I hope I still have some of you with me. If you stuck around with me until the end of this post, thank you. I'm sorry for being a Debbie Downer. I just needed to get this out, and I hope I'm right in thinking that most of you will understand!